One year. As of this weekend, February 12th, Josh and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary of marriage. I can honestly say I am so blessed. For some couples their first year is the hardest. For us it has been a wonderful, whirlwind of activity. Even as we exit the "honeymoon" stage I can say that there are times that I am with my husband I have the ooey goeey, stars in your eyes, shoot you to the moon emotions. However, those passionate feelings are not always there. Then there are times we simply do life together. I love him, there is not a question about that, but it is not driven by feelings.
The same thing happens with my baby boy. Sometimes I look at my son and I have this overwhelming sense of love for him. He can do just about anything and I will ohh and ahh and my heart will hurt because I love him oh so much. Other times we go about our day together and I love him, don't get me wrong, but those heart-wrenching feelings are not there. We just simply enjoy life together.
The other day as I was leaning over my son's bed and he was sleeping I experienced the heart-wrenching love moments. But it hit me then that I do not always feel this way. And it also hit me, do these relationships with my son and husband relfect my relationship with God?
You see at church sometimes I sing songs of how much I love God and I feel like a liar and a hypocrite. You see, I do not always feel like I love God. There are times I am overwhelmed with His love, His majesty, His mercy, His power and there are times that I simply enjoy just being with Him and knowing He is with me. And after thinking about it in light of my other relationships I think that is OK.
The amazing thing is that though my human heart is only capable of so much emotion, God is always passionate about me. He is always passionate about you. Now that is some serious lovin'.
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